I’m going to preface this simply: Logic and Rational do not apply to the mentally ill mind. If you think you can reason a mentally ill person out of one of their episodes (Depression, Panic, Flashbacks, Suicidal Ideations, Homicidal Ideations, Triggers, Psychosis, Catatonia, and the list goes on.) then you are horribly mistaken. In fact, that mentality could even cause more harm or even push the ill person past their limit. It is however notable that there are some, albeit few, exceptions to this rule. However, unless you know the sufferer well enough to know that it won’t make them worse, it could still trigger them. Primarily this all needs to be looked at on an individual basis, some people respond better to some other people. Some only have one person who can “snap them out of it.” For some people, that person is different based on the situation and especially based on the trigger. Usually it’s not something difficult for that one person to get the sufferer out of their state, it’s just a matter of knowing what triggered them. You must always be mindful of what you say within earshot of someone in an episode, even unintended, that can be an additional trigger. Remember, the best thing that you can do is to keep the person from harming themselves, harming others and to keep reassuring them with some affirmation (that they’re loved, that you’re all there for them, that you’re worried about them) anything that shows a connection to the sufferer. The less isolated they feel, the less likely that they will hurt themselves or others. I cannot stress enough, the sufferer is not rational and not logical. The worst thing you can do is to make them feel guilty or that it is in any way their fault. If someone around you has an episode, the chances of it being self induced are slim to none. So blaming the victim is not just wrong, if will worsen their condition. Even if blame is placed after the sufferer is out of the episode. These people are not selfish and are most likely hurting many times more than you could possibly hurt. Additionally, the sufferer almost always blames themselves for anything that may have happened, even knowing that it was not in their control. So making them feel guilty when they’re already blaming themselves will also just worsen the situation. People suffering from any chronic mental illness and/or childhood or adult traumas. Physical disorders count as well, but they tend to get relatively more sympathy and understanding. The mentally ill are treated like they create all the situations that happen to them, as if they intentionally want to destroy their own lives and relationships. If you don’t have a chronic mental disorder, think thrice (not just twice) before you place judgment. And be careful, to you, your judgements are just that, to someone mentally ill, your judgements are interpreted as a complete condemnation of themself. As illogical and irrational as it sounds, it is illogical and irrational. You can’t apply logic and rationality to the mind of someone with a severe mental illness, it will backfire.
This is not directed at anyone specific but as a public service announcement from one of the colorful 10%. I am a gay man and am only 1 of 10% of the population. I recognize that as a minority in a society that is only just learning to acknowledge their minorities, that my point of view will be misunderstood by most. Our society is Heteronormative and Heterocentric. But even saying that can be controversial, because what right does 10% have to question a society of 90%. But I digress. The purpose of my post is to inform the 90% about somethings:
1. Being gay is not a choice, we are born this way. And while I can’t speak for our female allies, I can say that being a gay male has been shown to be genetically determined. The “gay gene” is actually a naturally occurring and functional mutation on the X chromosome of gay males. Further proof of this is that biochemically, gay males produce a hormone that straight males do not. And it’s the female hormone known as Progesterone. But don’t mistake the fact that we’re still male and still have and produce all the same hormones as straight males. We just produce an extra one.
2. The reason for me bringing this up is not just to highlight the difference, but also the sameness that gay men have with straight men. Just because we’re gay, in this I am speaking of all gay people, does not mean that we are automatically infertile or Sterile. This also means that just because we are not driven to be with the opposite sex, does not in any way mean that we somehow have lost or relinquished our natural human instinct to procreate and have our own progeny (children of our own blood) or to have a desire to parent. Meaning Maternal and Paternal instincts. All still there. That’s not to say that many gay people aren’t socially conscious and as a result would rather adopt the many orphaned children out there, sacrificing their own drive to have children of their own blood. But that’s not all of us.
3. While, like I said above, many gay people opt to adopt from the overflowing numbers of orphans domestically and abroad. That is not the only avenue available to us. Like I said above, we are by no means infertile or sterile, so there is surrogacy available to us. Unfortunately since that involves the use of In-Vitro Fertilization (unless the gay people involved are open minded enough to do it the “old fashioned” way), this avenue is often only open to those with considerable resources at their disposal. But still, just because a gay man doesn’t have a woman or a Lesbian doesn’t have a man, means nothing, and to say so leads to my fourth and final point.
4. You don’t have to use a gay slur or physically assault a gay person to be homophobic. You just need to regard us, in any way, as less than you. If you do, then congratulations, you’re a homophobe. This is said not to shock or insult, but to make you think about what you say, and how you you say it, before you say it. None of us are perfect and I suspect that many people who don’t realize this fact pride themselves in how homophobic that they are not. So if a gay person points something like this out to you, no matter how much you feel that you are not a homophobe, you don’t really have a place or right to be offended or insulted by that gay person. If you’re not gay yourself then you can’t possibly understand how that gay person is feeling. You can sympathize, you can care, you can be compassionate (and please be so as much as possible, it is appreciated). But you cannot know, nor can you possibly feel the same.
Again, this is not directed at any individual but meant simply as a public service announcement to those of you who never knew.
Scattered Clouds, 64°F
it’s ok if you don’t have a lot to say. I do, but I’m not saying a word unless wanted. You’re right about me pushing, and Joe’s right about me caring too much. I do care too much, which is why all of this hurts, and why I’ve been fighting so hard for the whole group. I basically replaced Greg and Rachel with you guys, because they have far too much resentment that they refuse to work through. So to me, and I didn’t make this decision lightly, they’re lost causes. I still love them. But if I had to chose between them and you guys, you guys win. So when I say that you’re acting just like my family or siblings, please realize that that is not a compliment, it’s a warning. It’s agony to me when I feel like I’m being treated the same way as my family did. Because I chose you over my family of blood. I actually need family, a group of people who will always be there for and with me, who I never have to fear that they will harm me, who I never have to question what they say because how they say it says the opposite, who always treats me with respect, who doesn’t look down on me, and who can take accountability for their own actions. I’m sorry that I’m so much to deal with, I admit that it’s true. I’m not in any way discounting any of you traumas, but have you even stopped to think that I have them too, and they’re one of my triggers. Some of you might not need love or connection as much as I do, or even need it at all. But I’m a compassionate person, by nature I express myself with love. But that also means that I need an abundant supply of it. I recognize that I will probably never, in the rest of this life, receive the total amount of love that I need. Maybe if I can start loving myself, but just doing so, may be easy for you, but I’ve had a lifetime of being told, in one way or another, that I’m too much, I can’t be deal with you (now or ever), it’s all in my head (imagination, not true mental disorder), get over it, just stop caring so much. Any of that sound familiar? I can say, personally, that I have done my best to never utter any of those words to anyone, because I know how much damage they did to me.
I’m done hearing, "boo hoo Phil," or that I’m making it out to be all about me. I have never once questioned, criticized, berated, or been anything but supportive and present, for every one of you. Because I enjoy helping others, that’s the compassion. I’m sorry that none of you are are strong enough to deal with my psyche or issues. I’m not challenging your strength in other areas, just in dealing with the severely mentally ill.
Clear Sky, 66°F
well yeah, I just know that it didn’t work. I’m still lost as how to reconcile everyone’s differences. Becci’s instability, abusive environment, constant fear of her children being taken and feelings of isolation. Harley and her own severe anxiety, marriage problems, and her own children. You with the shitty situation that you’re living in, back home, with the parent who started all of your abuse, in a far weaker state because of the PNES, Cavernomae, Bloody Clots (why didn’t you tell me) and tumors (also why didn’t you tell me) and your willingness to just cut people out of your life without warning. Joe’s insecurities with the abuse he’s been put through, not just as a child but continuing through adulthood, the inherent mistrust that that leads to,
Pain doesn’t have to be physical
Pain doesn’t have to be seen
Pain can’t always be measured
Pain can’t always be treated
Pain can’t always be explained
Pain can be mental
Pain can be psychic
Pain can be hidden
Pain can be incurable
Pain can be localized; or it can be systemic
All forms of pain are debilitating
All forms of pain cause damage
Everyone reacts differently, even to the same type of pain
But most importantly, everyone is in some form of pain.
I am in pain.
Diamond is a powerful symbol that the alchemists have associated with refracting light. The shine and sparkle of the diamond is representative of vision, clarity, awareness, understanding and keen perception. As such, it denotes the journey that the human soul takes in the pursuit of the divine truth and attainment of higher enlightenment. The facets and angles of the diamond symbolize that this journey will involve walking along a labyrinth-like path that has a number of twists and turns. Everyone living with honorable intents will succeed in achieving the light or knowledge they seek.
Clear Sky, 61°F
Why do I piss people off. Why do I kill the mood. Why do I see problems when there are none. Why do I get this angry/anxious. Why do I just destroy everything. Whenever something good happens I always seem destroy it. When people show that they care, I just think they’re being shallow and don’t really mean it.
This is infuriating. It’s bad enough that the only financial aid that any American students can get are in the form of loans. And that it’s been proven that one of the greatest debt burdens of most Americans is student LOAN debt. But now these asshole states are going to prevent these graduates from getting or maintaining licensure if they fall behind in their loan payments. Many of these professions are also in critical shortage across the country. So FUCK YOU Texas and the rest of the states that think this is a brilliant idea. I hope you enjoy record level underemployment and importing people to fill these jobs, from other countries, just because they don’t have any American educational debt. Just keep cutting off your nose to spite your face. How well did Texas do when it was an independent republic anyway?